Dear Ucup,

Hi my great friend, how's your life? How's your wife? Am i already being an aunt? Can't wait it!

Long time I didn't any letters for you. Do you remember my ex-best friend that I ever have when I was in junior high school? It's been years I didn't contact her. Even I was at my home town last year, I still did't tell her. And few days ago, my daddy called me and told me that he mets her. He told me that she'll be married on February. I'm glad. No matter who's the person she'll marry with.

I just realize that in romance experience, I never really in love with my ex. I'm easy to like or admire someboddy but not easy to fall in love with. In my life, I just fall in love twice. First, with my little friend whom I could let this feeling go after twelve years. Then, some one in and has been made me falling in love again after that. And until now. 

Yep, he is the one that I ever told you (I can't believe that I still keep this feeling. Actually, i'm trying to give up. But I can't). I wanna get married. I wanna have a serious reationship. I don't even know the status of our relationship. I don't know does he love me or not. He makes me confuse. He said that he takes me as his sister, but then he treats me like his girlfriend. Sometimes he ignore me, but sometimes he trats me sweetly. But I still can't stay away of him. Are these the consequences of having relationship with someone younger than me? I know that your advice was right, to find someone that older than me. I'm trying. But, honestly, for me age is just a number. It can't guarantee the maturity of a person. I  don't know what shoud I do now? Any advice for me?